Where shall I start? I'm like a lost sheep ever since I left my Shepherd. Everything has not been going well even my heart & soul is like another being on its own. I lost my sense of direction & the pillar of my support. In the past, I used to questioned God on the things that are happening to me & I'll always feel better when I know that God share my saddness & loneliness. A few months have passed, following by a year or two. I've moved & I've grown. Without God. My life has no purpose and it is always lacking in something. I think back about the past though things may have change but my heart no longer has You. Dear God, do you think I am a selfish person? For denying the love you had for me that I choose to give up? My biological father may love me as his daughter but you are different. You gave more than what I really felt. My faith for you may not be strong but whenever I feel sad or empty, I imagine that You are there for me to share what I feel right at the moment. Which is something nobody can fulfill or take Your place. Dear God, right now I want to be enlighten by You. I just want to feel your love.
Work may have been tough, studies has just kicked off & physical disability may have hinder me, but end of the day it's just me. Myself. I love solitary but it dosen't conceal the love & care I hope to get. Please, I juat want to feel your love tonight.
