Is it monday blues, mood swing or am I feeling negative today?
While at work, I just got the urge to quit. And hoping for the time to pass quickly.
When it's time to go back, I don't look forward to go home but nowhere to go.
It's a pain and torturous.
When I'm home, I wish I could be happy but I'm not.
What kind of life am I going through right now?
Monday, July 19, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
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This post is going to suck.
Bad evening ever since yesterday. I quarrelled with my dad again. Probably this will be the last time we'll ever be in talking terms. Well, to say the history, it'll be long. All this is accumulated over time. I told him it's like fated that I'd revenge on him of what he did in the past. I didn't literally say I revenge on him, but it's fated. I didn't decide to but it's like I'm being forced under the circumstances. Since I was brought up in a broken family, which won't really have any good or positive things could happened, my character has been molted. What I couldn't enjoy & achieve during the past, I will strive for my own now. So if he suffer, he feels disappointed, heart-broken, he gets his medicine back. Have he not understand that this is how exactly me & my brother felt all these years? When he say not to mention about the past, but why? Since the present problem is the same as the past. I held on to the past because I am not satisfied on the current situation. I keep thinking why does this have to happen & why on me? My mind is just so shut out and my heart is always heavy. I know I am very demanding and insisted that things to go according to my way but can't I have that priviledge? Sometimes, I wish I was an orphan yearning for parents' love but at least I don't have to go through the pain & loss. This is worse than anything else.
Bad evening ever since yesterday. I quarrelled with my dad again. Probably this will be the last time we'll ever be in talking terms. Well, to say the history, it'll be long. All this is accumulated over time. I told him it's like fated that I'd revenge on him of what he did in the past. I didn't literally say I revenge on him, but it's fated. I didn't decide to but it's like I'm being forced under the circumstances. Since I was brought up in a broken family, which won't really have any good or positive things could happened, my character has been molted. What I couldn't enjoy & achieve during the past, I will strive for my own now. So if he suffer, he feels disappointed, heart-broken, he gets his medicine back. Have he not understand that this is how exactly me & my brother felt all these years? When he say not to mention about the past, but why? Since the present problem is the same as the past. I held on to the past because I am not satisfied on the current situation. I keep thinking why does this have to happen & why on me? My mind is just so shut out and my heart is always heavy. I know I am very demanding and insisted that things to go according to my way but can't I have that priviledge? Sometimes, I wish I was an orphan yearning for parents' love but at least I don't have to go through the pain & loss. This is worse than anything else.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Meet-up cum mini celebration
Weijie's Birthday Celebration
Meeting Venue: Bugis
Time: 630PM
I reached almost 7PM supported by a good reason. I went to buy the birthday boy's present.
We walked to Liang Seah Street for steamboat.
In the end, we decided Suntec.
Either Kuishinbo or steamboat.
Finally we settled for chinese-style buffet @ Pearl River (somewhere in between conventional halls)
We order alot. Really alot.
Buddha Jump over the Wall
Soft shell crab
Steamed Sea Bass
Lettuce, Long Beans & Baby Kailan
Cereal Prawns
Roasted Pork
Cripsy Duck Skin
Some other dishes I can't remember..
Cos the waitress serves & clean the plates faster than the rate we're eating.
Ya, the feeling is like either they are rushing to end work early or chasing us out.
Photo-taking cum uploading into Facebook
Dessert Time
Very full until we keep pushing the food to each other.
Next Destination: Esplanade
Just plain slacking & photo-taking
Abit of World Cup Fever with the rest
Just nice Brazil vs Holland playing
After awhile,
We parted & Home.
Nice hangout. Enjoyable Friday.
Meeting Venue: Bugis
Time: 630PM
I reached almost 7PM supported by a good reason. I went to buy the birthday boy's present.
We walked to Liang Seah Street for steamboat.
In the end, we decided Suntec.
Either Kuishinbo or steamboat.
Finally we settled for chinese-style buffet @ Pearl River (somewhere in between conventional halls)
We order alot. Really alot.
Buddha Jump over the Wall
Soft shell crab
Steamed Sea Bass
Lettuce, Long Beans & Baby Kailan
Cereal Prawns
Roasted Pork
Cripsy Duck Skin
Some other dishes I can't remember..
Cos the waitress serves & clean the plates faster than the rate we're eating.
Ya, the feeling is like either they are rushing to end work early or chasing us out.
Photo-taking cum uploading into Facebook
Dessert Time
Very full until we keep pushing the food to each other.
Next Destination: Esplanade
Just plain slacking & photo-taking
Abit of World Cup Fever with the rest
Just nice Brazil vs Holland playing
After awhile,
We parted & Home.
Nice hangout. Enjoyable Friday.
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