Jesus, my comfort

didn't know why i am so vulnerable to my emotions.

sense of loss and disappointment just fill up my heart.

everytime it is always like that.

everytime i seek for it to happen but it just won't be the way i like.

whatever that happened, it just break me even more.

sometimes i really feel like giving up but for the Lord i just keep hanging on.

it's hard. really hard.

maybe i'm not sensitive?

at times i think lowly of myself that how come other people are better than me?

am i not good enough?

why do some people get the attention where i just feels so behind?

why do some people want to snatch away my things which i just yearn for abit?

afterall i just want to be myself and be the best.

what can i do?

people say confidence, faith, trust in the Lord

but do you know it not easy at all.

Hebrews 12:2-3

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

Lord you ask me not to hate anymore, but it just keep attacking me, hurting me all over, i'm loss.

when everything seems out of sight, you are the only one standing there waiting for me.

i just want to hug you, embrace you forever. i love you Lord.

Happy Birthday ahtehx!!!

hot brownie with ice-cream

chicken cutlet

cheseey fish&chips

izuan yongfeng ahgui

ahtehx with his pressie..

hmm.. do they look familar??!..

groupie photo! the black & white theme. haha.

haiz.. after so long i finally can post the photos up!!! yeah! stupid com.. these photos were like taken on friday!? anyway went to mindcafe near ps there to celebrate ahtehx's birthday! others of the connect grp members also came down and we did have a great time hanging out. nice food, great games, afterall not a bad place to RELAX and have FUN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ahtehx!

An Eye for an Eye

i was reading the book of Matthew and all just came upon me,


Matthew5:21-22
you have heard that it was said to the people long ago, 'Do not murder, and anyone who murders will be subjected to judgement. But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subjected to judgement. Again, anyone who says to his brother 'Raca', is answerable to the Sanhedrin. But anyone who says, 'You fool!' will be in danger of the fire of hell.

Matthew5:38-42
you have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.'but I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.


It was said during the old testament period that one who kills will be subjected to judgement but Jesus said instead, "anyone who is angry with his brother will be subjected to judgement".
This just hit me because being angry is equal to killing and both will be subjected to judgement. I did just realised that I've been "killing" for very long, always being angry easily for anything that irritates me. I know that my family and friends have always putting up with my temper which I find it not easy. Because if you want me to put up with people's anger, I probably can't do it. The Lord also said, "Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also." Can you imagine not to say or do anything if someone or your friend slap you? I would probably scold the person or give him/her back a slap. Despite the regretfull things that had already happened in me, in the end I know that God loves me and wants me to change to become a better person so He gave me this revelation, "If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles." ( Thank you Lord!)

:p * hmm.. so next time you can try venting your anger or slapping me to see if i can "go the extra mile" for you.. hahahahah....

isketch any1?

heheheh.. playing isketch.

guess wad izzit???

the word is SLAP!

whiich is WHICH??

this is old chang kee's baby..

sardine'o & pepper'o

introducing the new..

KFC baby