My favourite kind of weather today but I couldn't enjoy it much. Gastric and stomach gas acting up. It is the 2nd time I thought I almost die after the first incident last year. Awaken by a horrible nightmare, my heart beated faster and difficulty in breathing. Drank lots of water, frequent toilet visits, took medication and rest. Hopefully, this will never happen again.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
Week 8 (14-20Feb)
I seriously need some discipline.
In dieting, exercising & studying.
I have to set a target/to do list.
Week 8 (14-20Feb)
1. Complete FEM103 TMA01 by Wed(16Feb) afternoon.
2. FEM107 Online Quiz (15-18Feb)
3. Go for a jog at least ONCE
4. Snack lesser - I'll try my best
In dieting, exercising & studying.
I have to set a target/to do list.
Week 8 (14-20Feb)
1. Complete FEM103 TMA01 by Wed(16Feb) afternoon.
2. FEM107 Online Quiz (15-18Feb)
3. Go for a jog at least ONCE
4. Snack lesser - I'll try my best
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
09/02/2011
I was browsing through some Facebook photos & it makes me feel how fragile things can be.
An image shows a thousand words, the expressions inspire different thoughts.
This reflects my recent thoughts & views of getting attached, marriage life & family life.
Commitment, responsibilities, duties, mutual trust, loyalty, faithfulness, respect, love, sacrifices, forgiving, caring, sharing, selflessness, etc..
Takes a whole lot of effort to make it work, maintaining it.
When I was still a child, my barbie doll sets & stickers collection were my fascination, nothing else matters.
Then teenage years took over, I started thinking much about the things in life that I want.
I challenged against fate to get things my way.
Finally I turned 21 years of age, I realised it's not easy being adult.
But I remain persistent of 'fighting for our own future' attitude.
I always believe that everyone has a choice to do it or not to do it.
Over the past 10 years since my mum has passed on, my life has changed tremedously.
I promised myself that I will never want to go through the hard times once again & I'll never allow the bad things to ever happen.
Those feelings of betrayal, mistrust, being used, being let down, false hopes.
People fails you, hence never just rely on them.
I will fight for what I want by myself.
Is maintaining relationship with a person or family every difficult?
Seeing my close ones facing problems with their partner or their family members leaves me wondering.
Marriage life can be so fragile.
Why would you want extra-marital affair when you are married with a wife & kids?
Your wife will be devastated, hatred will arise instead of love.
Your kids will be the ones that suffer the most.
If you really love them, you won't make them suffer because of your stupid mistake & impulsive behaviour.
Did you ever thought or want your kids to lead a broken family life & set their fate for them?
That's their childhood you're ruining.
When they grow up, they will only have painfully memories.
There are so many consequences that are caused by you & yet the people around you have to experience all these pains.
Are all of these FAIR?
We are broken but but we can always decide to be whole.
Dear God, thank you for your love & strength.
An image shows a thousand words, the expressions inspire different thoughts.
This reflects my recent thoughts & views of getting attached, marriage life & family life.
Commitment, responsibilities, duties, mutual trust, loyalty, faithfulness, respect, love, sacrifices, forgiving, caring, sharing, selflessness, etc..
Takes a whole lot of effort to make it work, maintaining it.
When I was still a child, my barbie doll sets & stickers collection were my fascination, nothing else matters.
Then teenage years took over, I started thinking much about the things in life that I want.
I challenged against fate to get things my way.
Finally I turned 21 years of age, I realised it's not easy being adult.
But I remain persistent of 'fighting for our own future' attitude.
I always believe that everyone has a choice to do it or not to do it.
Over the past 10 years since my mum has passed on, my life has changed tremedously.
I promised myself that I will never want to go through the hard times once again & I'll never allow the bad things to ever happen.
Those feelings of betrayal, mistrust, being used, being let down, false hopes.
People fails you, hence never just rely on them.
I will fight for what I want by myself.
Is maintaining relationship with a person or family every difficult?
Seeing my close ones facing problems with their partner or their family members leaves me wondering.
Marriage life can be so fragile.
Why would you want extra-marital affair when you are married with a wife & kids?
Your wife will be devastated, hatred will arise instead of love.
Your kids will be the ones that suffer the most.
If you really love them, you won't make them suffer because of your stupid mistake & impulsive behaviour.
Did you ever thought or want your kids to lead a broken family life & set their fate for them?
That's their childhood you're ruining.
When they grow up, they will only have painfully memories.
There are so many consequences that are caused by you & yet the people around you have to experience all these pains.
Are all of these FAIR?
We are broken but but we can always decide to be whole.
Dear God, thank you for your love & strength.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
11/1/11
On 11/1/11, I tendered my resignation letter.
One month notice.
Without prior planning or what's so ever.
Just plain quitting.
The urge that could no longer wait to embrace carefree & freedom.
I assume this will be best for both ends.
When you reach the ending, it means that a brand new beginning is coming.
Jiayou becca!
Keep fighting until something happens!
One month notice.
Without prior planning or what's so ever.
Just plain quitting.
The urge that could no longer wait to embrace carefree & freedom.
I assume this will be best for both ends.
When you reach the ending, it means that a brand new beginning is coming.
Jiayou becca!
Keep fighting until something happens!
Monday, December 6, 2010
December 2010, Week 50
6th, Mon - Facial Appointment
8th, Wed - Meet up with Financial Planner
10th, Fri - Scrumptious Dinner with mugging pal
12th, Sun - JB trip with the Dearest 4Girls
16th ~19th, Thurs~Sun - BKK Trip
8th, Wed - Meet up with Financial Planner
10th, Fri - Scrumptious Dinner with mugging pal
12th, Sun - JB trip with the Dearest 4Girls
16th ~19th, Thurs~Sun - BKK Trip
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
It's about change
Not an avid blogger, I logged in and found much changes in Blogger. Templates design, hecked. I went to clicked UPGRADE & my old blog skin changed (as what you see now). Everything is changing at every seconds of time & you never knows when it is and what's coming up. Just like the things in life.
Supposedly to work on Monday & Tuesday, I went to take MC for 2 days. Okay, it was an undisciplined and dishonesty act. Felt really bad but glad cos I don't have to work. But this is like deceiving myself right? In the end, still got to return to work when the day comes. Honestly, I don't really enjoy working. Whether it is my work that I don't like or it is having to work that I dislike, I haven't figure out that answer yet. It feels great to have a job, earning your own income but all of these does not come easy. Most of the time I wonder how others do it when I myself finds it tough. It is like losing that motivation & you try finding back but ended up losing it.
Over the 1 year since, life was difficult & I had almost given up all hopes. Almost near the end of 2010, I've accomplished nothing of significant. Is this not the way I wanted it?
I slowly comprehend that why we need God in our lives.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
ACC203 Topic Forum 1 Locked
Urgh!! I'm so wasted!! I've got myself to blame if I were to have F-grade(high possibility). My negligence and stupidity had overcomed my being. Why didn't I submit the 2 postings?? I'm gonna do the Qn2!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Something to tell Shepherd
Where shall I start? I'm like a lost sheep ever since I left my Shepherd. Everything has not been going well even my heart & soul is like another being on its own. I lost my sense of direction & the pillar of my support. In the past, I used to questioned God on the things that are happening to me & I'll always feel better when I know that God share my saddness & loneliness. A few months have passed, following by a year or two. I've moved & I've grown. Without God. My life has no purpose and it is always lacking in something. I think back about the past though things may have change but my heart no longer has You. Dear God, do you think I am a selfish person? For denying the love you had for me that I choose to give up? My biological father may love me as his daughter but you are different. You gave more than what I really felt. My faith for you may not be strong but whenever I feel sad or empty, I imagine that You are there for me to share what I feel right at the moment. Which is something nobody can fulfill or take Your place. Dear God, right now I want to be enlighten by You. I just want to feel your love.
Work may have been tough, studies has just kicked off & physical disability may have hinder me, but end of the day it's just me. Myself. I love solitary but it dosen't conceal the love & care I hope to get. Please, I juat want to feel your love tonight.
Monday, July 19, 2010
blues
Is it monday blues, mood swing or am I feeling negative today?
While at work, I just got the urge to quit. And hoping for the time to pass quickly.
When it's time to go back, I don't look forward to go home but nowhere to go.
It's a pain and torturous.
When I'm home, I wish I could be happy but I'm not.
What kind of life am I going through right now?
While at work, I just got the urge to quit. And hoping for the time to pass quickly.
When it's time to go back, I don't look forward to go home but nowhere to go.
It's a pain and torturous.
When I'm home, I wish I could be happy but I'm not.
What kind of life am I going through right now?
Sunday, July 11, 2010
......
This post is going to suck.
Bad evening ever since yesterday. I quarrelled with my dad again. Probably this will be the last time we'll ever be in talking terms. Well, to say the history, it'll be long. All this is accumulated over time. I told him it's like fated that I'd revenge on him of what he did in the past. I didn't literally say I revenge on him, but it's fated. I didn't decide to but it's like I'm being forced under the circumstances. Since I was brought up in a broken family, which won't really have any good or positive things could happened, my character has been molted. What I couldn't enjoy & achieve during the past, I will strive for my own now. So if he suffer, he feels disappointed, heart-broken, he gets his medicine back. Have he not understand that this is how exactly me & my brother felt all these years? When he say not to mention about the past, but why? Since the present problem is the same as the past. I held on to the past because I am not satisfied on the current situation. I keep thinking why does this have to happen & why on me? My mind is just so shut out and my heart is always heavy. I know I am very demanding and insisted that things to go according to my way but can't I have that priviledge? Sometimes, I wish I was an orphan yearning for parents' love but at least I don't have to go through the pain & loss. This is worse than anything else.
Bad evening ever since yesterday. I quarrelled with my dad again. Probably this will be the last time we'll ever be in talking terms. Well, to say the history, it'll be long. All this is accumulated over time. I told him it's like fated that I'd revenge on him of what he did in the past. I didn't literally say I revenge on him, but it's fated. I didn't decide to but it's like I'm being forced under the circumstances. Since I was brought up in a broken family, which won't really have any good or positive things could happened, my character has been molted. What I couldn't enjoy & achieve during the past, I will strive for my own now. So if he suffer, he feels disappointed, heart-broken, he gets his medicine back. Have he not understand that this is how exactly me & my brother felt all these years? When he say not to mention about the past, but why? Since the present problem is the same as the past. I held on to the past because I am not satisfied on the current situation. I keep thinking why does this have to happen & why on me? My mind is just so shut out and my heart is always heavy. I know I am very demanding and insisted that things to go according to my way but can't I have that priviledge? Sometimes, I wish I was an orphan yearning for parents' love but at least I don't have to go through the pain & loss. This is worse than anything else.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Meet-up cum mini celebration
Weijie's Birthday Celebration
Meeting Venue: Bugis
Time: 630PM
I reached almost 7PM supported by a good reason. I went to buy the birthday boy's present.
We walked to Liang Seah Street for steamboat.
In the end, we decided Suntec.
Either Kuishinbo or steamboat.
Finally we settled for chinese-style buffet @ Pearl River (somewhere in between conventional halls)
We order alot. Really alot.
Buddha Jump over the Wall
Soft shell crab
Steamed Sea Bass
Lettuce, Long Beans & Baby Kailan
Cereal Prawns
Roasted Pork
Cripsy Duck Skin
Some other dishes I can't remember..
Cos the waitress serves & clean the plates faster than the rate we're eating.
Ya, the feeling is like either they are rushing to end work early or chasing us out.
Photo-taking cum uploading into Facebook
Dessert Time
Very full until we keep pushing the food to each other.
Next Destination: Esplanade
Just plain slacking & photo-taking
Abit of World Cup Fever with the rest
Just nice Brazil vs Holland playing
After awhile,
We parted & Home.
Nice hangout. Enjoyable Friday.
Meeting Venue: Bugis
Time: 630PM
I reached almost 7PM supported by a good reason. I went to buy the birthday boy's present.
We walked to Liang Seah Street for steamboat.
In the end, we decided Suntec.
Either Kuishinbo or steamboat.
Finally we settled for chinese-style buffet @ Pearl River (somewhere in between conventional halls)
We order alot. Really alot.
Buddha Jump over the Wall
Soft shell crab
Steamed Sea Bass
Lettuce, Long Beans & Baby Kailan
Cereal Prawns
Roasted Pork
Cripsy Duck Skin
Some other dishes I can't remember..
Cos the waitress serves & clean the plates faster than the rate we're eating.
Ya, the feeling is like either they are rushing to end work early or chasing us out.
Photo-taking cum uploading into Facebook
Dessert Time
Very full until we keep pushing the food to each other.
Next Destination: Esplanade
Just plain slacking & photo-taking
Abit of World Cup Fever with the rest
Just nice Brazil vs Holland playing
After awhile,
We parted & Home.
Nice hangout. Enjoyable Friday.
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